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解她,恐怕就是因为在我身上,从来没有过为了别人、为了所爱的人而献身的精神,从来没有!

我的心里只有我自己,即使想“超越自己”也是为了自己。这就是我和她之间最大的差距。

我把她搂进怀里,我现在才觉得我是真正地爱她,不是感恩,不是感激之情。我热情地喃喃地说:“马缨花,我们还是结婚吧!别人怎么过,我们也怎么过;让我来分担你的负担不好么?”“‘怎——么’,‘怎——么’!”她略略推开我,深情地凝视着我的眼睛,而用嗔怒的口气说“我不能让你跟别人家男人一样‘老婆孩子热炕头’,那最是个没起色的货!你是念书人,就得念书。只要你念书,哪怕我苦得头上长草也心甘情愿。我要你‘分担’啥?你能‘分担’啥?咱们一结了婚,那些傻熊还会给我送东西来么?你看,我不出手,羊下水就给我搁在那儿了。你呀,傻狗狗,你就等着吃吧,这还不好么?…”她还是要我念书,而为什么要我念书,她始终也没有说出个所以然来。在她脑子里,似乎认为念书就是我的本分,我的天职,像养着猫一定要它促老鼠一样。我心里蓦然有种幽默感,同时,也不得不承认她的这种想法倒很现实。“女人的心计啊,女人的心计啊…”我默默地念叨着。

可是,这无疑又是我的耻辱。难道我能靠一个女人的姿色来过比较温饱的生活?来“念书”?这样做,我就更降低了我自己。“不!”我重复地说“不!我们还是结婚吧,我不能让你那样做!我们还是结婚吧…”

“哎,傻狗狗。”她说“我又没有说不跟你结婚,我早就想着哩,要不,我这是干啥呢?等这‘低标准’一过,日子过好了点,咱们就去登记,让那些傻熊看了干瞪眼…”

“不,不…”我执拗地说“我不能让你那样做,那你不等于骗了人家?”“谁骗谁呀?傻狗狗。”她安抚我“你不想想,他们给我的吃食,哪些是他们自己腰包里掏出来的?我不要,他们拿回去自己吃了,还不如咱们吃掉哩。告诉你,这个队上,管事的就谢胡子一个人是好人,连那个烧饭的伙夫都不是好熊!”我被她独具匠心的、现实的、冷静的盘算弄得晕晕乎乎的:我究竟应该遵循哪种道德规范来生活?她并没有考虑到这一点:我们要照她那样的安排来度过困难,我就失去了一个男人的尊严。在她认为,这是非常时期可以采取的一种权宜之计,而我,身体恢复了健康——正是在她权宜之计的安排下恢复的健康,并且重新“念书”之后,我的羞耻心和道德观都强烈地阻止我这样做。

“不!”我仍然固执地说“不!你别那样做。我们还是结婚吧,谢队长也同意了,我们马上就登记去。”

“你是不是不相信我,怕我跟了别人?”她说,口气和神色都带着少有的严肃。显然,她把我今天迫不及待地要求结婚领会错了。于是她又钻进我怀里,踮起脚尖,用脸颊磨擦着我的脸,柔声地说:“要不,你现时就把它拿去吧,嗯,你要的话,现时就把它拿去吧。”

她忙碌了一夜,现在脸色还是疲倦的。美丽的大眼睛下那一圈淡青色更深重了,她这种行动,纯粹是女人为了爱情的一种献身的热忱,一点也没有个人的欲念。我感受到了一种令人心酸的、致命的幸福。是的,是致命的幸福!我胸中陡然涌出了这种情感,像一首弦乐合奏的无词歌从心里汩汩地流淌出来:不是情欲,甚至也不是一般的爱情,而是一种纯洁的、神圣的感情。有限的爱情要求占有对方,无限的爱情则只要求爱的本身。神是人创造的,在人创造神的过程中,一定曾经怀有过这种感情因素吧。我谦恭地吻了她一下,然后轻轻推开她。“不,”我说“我们还是等结婚以后吧。”

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